I’ve never been one to like surprises. The experience of it has mostly given me anxiety. I don’t do well with large crowds or situations where I have to be at the forefront. I like to be behind the scenes and move without being visible. Like an assassin, they move swiftly and without a trace. Or even like a stage manager, who organizes the backstage area and helps the production flow, those who are part of the production know that they’re there but those in the front of the house don’t see them until the end of the curtain call.
As for me, God has always spoken of His desire to want to bless and even surprise me, yet the thought of that makes me somewhat uncomfortable. Mostly, because it ushers me into a place of the unknown and causes me to ask the following questions…
Will I like the surprise?
Will it satisfy me?
Is it what I want or even need?
Does it meet my level of expectation?
When is this surprise suppose to happen?
Am I ready for it?
I’ve asked these sort of questions throughout my lifetime but really what it comes down to is
“Can I trust God to know me well enough to know my desires and fulfill them or will He place on me what He wants, while not considering how I might feel? Does He understand me at my core?
This might sound like a silly thought, but we all have done this at some point in our lives. We wonder if God will bring us the right mate, if He will give us the right job or when He blesses us, how will he do it and will it match the way in which we think it might be done.
Really, no one knows unless He’s given you a word of knowledge/ prophetic insight into what is to come. It seems to be a secret until something is further revealed. You know you’re supposed to trust Him in all things, but when it comes to our own hearts, we waiver.
(It’s like planning a party and you pick all the places and things that a person hates, and then you expect them to smile through the discomfort. Really, who wants to fake an emotional response in this sorta moment? However, some people will because they love you and they don’t want you to be disappointed or even have you to view them as being ungrateful.)
As I considered these things, I know within myself that I don’t want to fake happiness with God. I don’t ever want to receive something from Him and then be discouraged because it’s not what I wanted. Yet in my life, He’s never given me a reason to have to put up a front. He has always shown me that He understands me at my core. However, what I needed to understand is that His will overrides my own and that took time.
I have been astounded at how God has moved in my life so far and I’ve never had to fake anything when it comes to Him because the way in which He has moved, has always given me a genuine reaction, one of great gratitude. That’s not to say that gratitude is my first response but it always becomes my last, which outweighs anything I felt previously.
Although I’m still waiting for many things, just like everyone else, I can still trust His overall plans for me and find peace and contentment.
The Bible says in Romans 15:13 AMP
“May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing [through the experience of your faith] that by the power of the Holy Spirit you will abound in hope and overflow with confidence in His promises.”
Psalms 84:11-12 ESV
“For the Lord God is a sun and shield; the Lord bestows favor and honor. No good thing does he withhold from those who walk uprightly. O Lord of hosts, blessed is the one who trusts in you!”
So I ask, how’s your trust level doing?
If you need a bit of a boost, I can only speak to what I’ve seen, and what I’ve come to realize is that God takes joy in surprising His people. He’s creative. Even further, a masterful planner who knows everything about us. He does His research and silently listens. He takes note of the things both spoken and unsaid, and when the time is right, He brings those moments back to memory. He reintroduces them and shows that they weren’t a passing conversation, and prayer left unheard. However, in the midst of this, we do face the painful reminder that our lives are not our own and that “it’s not about us”. Your wants, dreams, and desires come second to His greater purpose.
For those who understand where I’m coming from and entertain questions and concerns that are beyond you, just know God won’t let you down. He knows your every like and dislikes. Every dream and every desire. He has a plan for your future and there is something in store for you that will absolutely surprise you.
Yet, as I stated earlier I don’t like surprises, but even I have to expect the unexpected and let down my guard and my ability to want to know everything and have control, and just trust that He knows what is best for me. Even further, what I’m ready for.
I know you have your expectations and I’m sorry that some of the plans for your life have not come to pass as of yet, but even your own desires have to yield to God’s plans, which is a sacrifice. It takes discipline. You may not have received what you’ve been waiting for but God has everything in place for you to actively wait. Remember, God has an agenda all of His own that He’s trying to work out in you and that takes precedence over your feelings.
The things you’ve been desiring and waiting for in this life may not come at the time or in the way in which you expect it to, but intentionally choose to let go and leave the details up to Him. Let the Lord bring all things into its fulfillment in His perfect timing. Which means you’ll have need of endurance.
When He says it’s time, it’s time no matter how you presently feel. You may not be able to mentally absorb how He does it, but spiritually choose to stand with Him in faith, as He prepares His plans for you.
His promise of a surprise is the revealing of His agenda discovered by you…it’s a surprise because it includes all the things that you would’ve never considered for yourself. Things that may or may not have been on your list.
So get ready to be moved and become comfortable with the idea of feeling His hand guiding you in your life. Directing you through doors that were once closed and are now beginning to open.
Acknowledge His presence, and know that He’s got you ❤
Live your testimony, Breathe your testimony!
Be encouraged and know that you’re loved by God and thank you for taking the time to read my blog!