The months of February and March were very difficult for me. I had been experiencing some symptoms in my body that needed to be checked out, which eventually lead me to be admitted into a hospital. However, my post is not about all the circumstances that led to me being admitted (because I am fine and all symptoms have since ceased), but instead, about a personal testimony, I experienced while I was there.
To start, let me just state this:
*In all things we are to give glory to God. So this is in no way, an attempt of seeking glory from man.
*No matter the situation, The Lord can use any and everything to accomplish His will and purpose. In this case, unbeknownst to me, He was going to use me.
So here we go,
When my roommate and I first met, it was late at night. We were both admitted into the pediatric unit because that was the only room they could put us. It was a COVID-free floor and the hospital had limited visiting hours. Here I am, in room 333, with a picture of a lighthouse painted above my bed (which should have already been a sign of God’s purpose and covering.)
My husband had just left. Visiting hours were over and I was a complete mess. Up until that time, I had never stayed in a hospital by myself, so I was nervous.
After an hour or two, my roommate shows up. She was an absolute sweetheart. She was personable. She wasn’t a complainer. And unfortunately, she was stuck with me.
To be honest, I wasn’t up for conversations. So I was cordial but still kept her at arm’s length.
In the beginning, she did most of the initiating lol. And although it took me some time to adjust my position, I slowly let her in, and she began to see a different side of me.
As the days went by, we began to get to know
each other better. We began to open up about our reason for being there. Our quick hellos turned into; what did you order to eat and conversations about what shows we were watching.
I mean, we’re both in vulnerable positions, there wasn’t much privacy when Dr’s and nurses came in to discuss our cases. That alone opened up the opportunity for us to speak more often about what we were individually going through.
There was a turning and shifting happening within my heart, to where I became a bit more invested in my roommate. We opened up about our lives and that which originally felt like an inconvenience became more of a pleasurable experience. I was ready to engage.
(Side note: Sometimes when you go through things we can paint the picture that no one will understand our stories, so why bother to tell it. They’ll either look down upon us or just won’t understand. So this creates silence and even further a resistance to engage. After some time, this becomes a pattern of comfort and safety that isn’t fitting for us. Sharing our hearts with others, allows a connection to be had. A better understanding of who we are with all of our frailties and wonders. It’s up to us if we decide to see and present the ugly instead of the beauty and wonder.)
This experience was a beautiful blessing.
The time had come for me to be released. All tests came back as normal and I was just waiting for the discharge papers to go through so I could finally go home.
I found it very peculiar that it took three hours for me to get discharged. So I already knew something was up.
As we were eating dinner, my roommate began to compliment me on how my husband and I communicated with one another. She had privately been watching our interactions and overhearing some of our phone calls and WhatsApp conversations. She pretty much said that it was nice to see a husband and wife get along so well. Where you can tell that they have mutual respect and care for one another, and how she admired us for that. Even further, desired that within her marriage.
It was at that time that I instantly felt the Holy Spirit tell me to pray over her marriage.
I didn’t know what to say. I knew she was catholic but didn’t know if she would welcome my prayer.
But that was the moment I knew that my being in the hospital wasn’t about me anymore. God allowed me to be present in a moment where only He could provide what was needed.
So I finished eating and built up the courage to ask her if I could pray for her. She said she wasn’t a religious person but didn’t mind me praying with her. And so I did, and she responded with nothing but appreciation.
She was the one God wanted to reach that moment.
And after I prayed, I told her, “if my only reason for being in here was to pray with you, then it was worth it.”
Basically what I’m saying is:
You never know what position the Lord will place you in to accomplish his will or reach someone He desires to touch.
Like the 99 and going after the one
(Matthew 18:12-14 AMP)
Like Paul had a vision of a man crying out for help from Macedonia
(Acts 16:9-10 AMP)
The Lord knew what she needed and had me be the point of contact on His behalf.
Galatians 6:10 AMP
So then, while we [as individual believers] have the opportunity, let us do good to all people [not only being helpful, but also doing that which promotes their spiritual well-being], and especially [be a blessing] to those of the household of faith (born-again believers).”
Often, it takes something out of our control to position us to do the things we would never do on our own. No matter how uncomfortable it is, there will always be a sign that God’s hand was in it, from beginning to end and everything in between.
It’s up to us to trust Him through the unknown and difficulties.
It’s up to us to come into agreement to be used by Him whenever and however.
It’s not up to me to see what has happened past my moment of obedience but to know that beyond that point, it is solely up to God to complete and fulfill all that He said.
In this situation, I was not the picture-perfect Christian. I was dealing with my own stuff. I wasn’t ready to engage and reach out to help someone else…. so I thought.
But little did I know, that what God had already placed within me was still shining brightly, although I felt dim.
This confirms to me that God will not wait for you to be completely through whatever you’re personally going through to put you on assignment. You can still be placed exactly where you need to be, to do His will.
You may not feel ready.
Your story may not feel complete and things may not be exactly how you want them to be but
You Don’t Stop Living.
You Don’t Stop Progressing.
You Don’t Stop Fulfilling Your Call To Be A Servant.
God won’t wait for all things to get better before He decides to use you. (If he did, nothing would ever get done.)
Get comfortable with the idea that The Lord is not looking for you to be perfect but willing to comply with His request.
It doesn’t matter if it’s publicly or privately, the response of obedience and level of submission should be the same.
I can’t say this enough…
Be Responsive To The Guidance Of The Holy Spirit
(especially if your ears have been trained to recognize His voice.)
1 Thessalonians 5:19-21 AMP
“Do not quench [subdue, or be unresponsive to the working and guidance of] the [Holy] Spirit. Do not scorn or reject gifts of prophecy or prophecies [spoken revelations—words of instruction or exhortation or warning]. But test all things carefully [so you can recognize what is good]. Hold firmly to that which is good.”
People are waiting for you to be obedient to what God has asked you to do.
Can you imagine someone not getting the confirmation they needed, the prayer they desperately/secretly desired to be prayed, all because you didn’t feel like it 👀
Well, what you feel right about now is the responsibility of your call…. don’t push it aside.
Sit in it.
Hang out with it.
Your life has a purpose and God can take care of you at the same time, He is taking care of someone else.
Rest assured that God is a masterful multitasker lol. Just don’t disrupt the flow by saying No, when He wants your Yes.
I hope this post has both encouraged and blessed you.
Keep Going. Don’t Stop. You’re Doing Great!
Until Next Time ❤️
8 Replies to “The Circumstance, Is Not All There Is To Be Seen”
Romans 8:19 For the creation waits in eager expectation for the children of God to be revealed.
I’ve always read that scripture as “stay ready because there are souls attached to you” When God puts a purpose in you it doesn’t matter if youre ready (in your eyes) or not God will use you for His glory. Amen! Great post Tonya!
Thanks Sis ❤️ I love your scripture reference. We never know in what way the Lord will reveal us. All that matters is that when we recognize these opportunities, we decide to walk through the door in faith, trusting that the Holy Spirit will fill our mouths with the specific words He wants to impart into that individuals life.
KNOW HIS PRESENCE.
Allow your heart to be softened. Your ears to be opened, and your mind to resist the urge to question why he’s doing what he’s doing.
Choose to momentarily step outside of yourself in order to be used by Him.
It’s not an easy thing to do but it’s a privilege & an honor to esteem our brethren and speak peace, well-being, stability and encouragement into their lives, thus planting a seed for growth & transformation.
Ahhh. Had to read this outloud to my hubby. Theres always purpose in our pain/suffering. When you search for God in the midst of it, he ALWAYS shows out and reminds us that he has us covered.
Lol Awww ❤️❤️ That’s Awesome Kim! I hope this post was able to give some additional insights on how God can move through His people.
He is an unlimited God, who often functions outside of the limits we try to place on Him.
“Search for God in the midst of the pain/suffering” YES-( though it hurts, though it’s unbearable, you still STAND and trust God to hold you up. Which allows you to comfort others with the comfort you’ve been given )
He’ll connect the pieces and give clarity & purpose for it.
Thank you for your feedback ❤️
Inspiring and insightful. We never know how or when God is going to use us. It is amazing to be used by God but even more amazing when He uses us though our pain, our not understanding, our suffering or even at times our stubbornness.
Jo, Thank you so much for your response
❤️ (Pain, not understanding, suffering and stubbornness… Girl )
God knows what needs to happen to get us to move. Sometimes the weight of the trial is the biggest pain but everything you experience in those moments helps to prepare you to speak in love and have empathy for others.
When your at your lowest nothing else matters as much as accomplishing what the Lord is asking you to do. You don’t care as much about “correctness”, you say & do what He wants you to do with no attachments.
His agenda is all His own, we’re just there to help in accomplishing it.
He gives us the motivation to do His will. (Which usually comes with instruction, so be prepared to listen.)
Your blog is appropriately named when this entry is read. Recognition that what happens to us sometimes really isn’t about us is so critical in our faith walk. Glad you’re recovered and back on the grind. God has His hand on you.
Thanks Bro ❤️ I appreciate your feedback. It often begs to question, if what we go through is worth all the pain & suffering in order to bring comfort, light and relief to others.
The Christian thing to say is Yes, of course it is, but without discovering the purpose of the pain/trial it can definitely feel unbearable. I’m thankful for all the times God has chosen to reveal the WHY to me because it helped me to endure the tough times.
Even though we’ll never know all the inner workings of God, it’s awesome to be given a glimpse into his handiwork!